The Lillies of the Field (did not hyperventalate)

Written on March 23, posted on March 31

Today is March 23. I have a devotion book that I received from my sister Sarah, and today's message touched me.

I am a God of both intricate detail and overflowing abundance. When you entrust the details of your life to Me, you are surprised by how thoroughly I answer your petitions.

Intricate detail...He designed this body, and knows why it isn't working. He knows every fiber of my being. And in abundance are His resources, His gifts of healing, and His attention. I need to trust that the details of this journey (right now the worry and fear of cost is dominating my thoughts).

I take pleasure in hearing your prayers, so feel free to being Me all your requests. The more you pray, the more answers you can receive.

I'm stuck at "all" of my requests. I almost want to say, "Are you sure?...Because I am super needy." Is it true that the more we pray, the more we will receive from Him?

Best of all, your faith is strengthened as you see how precisely I respond to your specific prayers.
Right now, I am running on empty in the faith department. I know I can't expect anything from Him if I don't believe with my whole heart.

Because I am infinite in all My ways, you need not fear that I will run out of resources.Abundance is at the very heart of who I am.
I know that God can't run out of anything, because He built and created everything. I need to remember the lillies of the field. None of them ever freaked out about anything, and neither did the birds. I have got to start believing that He loves me too and will provide just as abundantly for me.

Come to me in joyful expectation of receiving all that you need--and sometimes much more! I delight in showering blessings on my beloved children.
When I think of joyful expectation, I think of being a kid having a birthday party. I remember what it was like getting ready for that day, seeing your friends, and opening presents. God wants to give us presents. God wants to give me presents, too. Right? God wants to give me my heart's desire? What if children are not part of the plan he has for my little family? If it isn't, Lord, please help me realize that and accept it sooner rather than later.

Come to me with open hands and heart, ready to receive all that I have for you.
I'm going home this weekend to have my Poppa and my patriarch give us a special blessing and administration. I need to have joyful expectation like I am going to a birthday party. I hope that the Lord gives me a present that I understand.